Last moments of 08...

How long have I stopped writing post over here?
Since september...hmm?
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It's so funny...I was supposed to finish this post before the end of 2008,
thus the tittle 'Last moments of 08'..
However,I was only able to write just 2 lines...the 1st 2 sentences just right on top...
then I've stopped writing ever since...until now,which is 16th of January,2009
(Friday by the way..)..
I guess it's 1 of my bad habits after all, I tend to drag everything until the very last moment...
Ok then,what happened then?
The so called 'last moments'...
I felt like I was wasting my time during the last 3 months of 08'....
Well,to be honest,I don't even think I ever fully utilize the time given to me to do a single damn thing that was productive & beneficial to me or to anyone during this whole damn year....
I was as confusing & depressing as ever during this whole period as well...
I choose to run away....again....but to where?Where could I possibly be running to..
so that I could find my inner peace?& also the purpose of my very own existence?
Of course,up until now,I still couldn't find any of these,,,things that I hoped to find...
& still trapped inside my very own miserable world, unable to 'do what must be done'....
unable to trully move on....
Sure,sure,I've helped my primary school to run a small one-day camp ,at least that was something...right....
& don't forget about the even smaller installation night of my tiny little not worth mentioning library....wow...what a great job I've done...
Then before I could realised it,it was the end of 08....
What a year..huh?
Thus,concludes the chapter 'My miserable life of year 2008'.....