I haven't been writing anything since my last birthday rant ,
not that there are anything interesting to write about anyway...
It's been 2 years since the incident that caused me huge setbacks ,
so now I've finally back to where I was (with a bit more to spare)..
I even gotten myself a new rig using that extra bit ,
as I told myself :"It's time to properly reward myself for real this time "
During the last 2 years my main focus was to try to recover what I've lost in that incident ,
& in order to reach that goal as soon as possible I've decided not to doing anything else .
Occasionally I do day dream about what could've been if I didn't have that setback ,
but then again Covid would still happened and I probably wont be doing anything differently anyway.
I thought I'd have regain back my confidences ,back to where I was before the setbacks ,
back to the good o' hopeful me once I've done recovering the loss ...
but I thought wrong...yet again...
not the 1st time & I got a strong feeling that it's not going be the last time I'm wrong
so I guess I'll have to start get used to it...
No matter what lies I convinced myself , things will never truly be back to how it was.
This year will be yet another may be after all...
