End of 2009

I noticed I've again skipped a long period of my life before finally come to this post
(My last post being written in October , and it was about my life in September by the way...)
I'd really love to summarize all those interesting happenings during these past 3 months , or the whole 2nd sem I've been through over here ...
but if I do that ,I'm not sure whether or not I could finish this post right on time ,
before 2009 actually ends ...
Perhaps I'll do another recaps some other time to recall back and record down all those past flashbacks...
...provided that if I still have the mood and good memory to make it happens by then.....
Anyway,for now ,I wish to write down my current emotions and thoughts and how I feel right now ,seeing the end of year 2009 is approaching...
I spent my X'mas in penang ,had lots of fun with my good o' friends during the weekends , & I'm really glad I went back home....
But I've to admit...I've made a choice that will cost me quite some serious consequences...
I've yet to feel the burn , but I realize it won't take long until I experience the damage which I'll then feel regret about it...
I won't be asking myself about : "Am I making the right decision?" or something like that...the fact was ,the choice is made and I can't do anything to change it right now..& I'm pretty sure that the choice which I've made will definitely do me more harm than good...
sooner or later...
I guess somethings just won't change ,eh?
Especially the bad ones , it'll just repeats itself again and again...
Even the so called 'smooth sailing moments' won't last that long..at least in my case...
& I know full well about why is that so...because there's something inside me that haven't changed for good...& it's only a matter of time before it finally ruin my entire life....for good...