Sleeping Volcano

There was an eruption just a week ago ,
but instead of lava , tears were being burst out ..
An outcome that I did not expect ,
but it just happened ..naturally...

I guess that's how an eruption supposed to be...

I got a feeling that wouldn't be the last eruption...
this volcano may appears asleep on the surface,
but deep within?
It's always raging...waiting for another eruption

Obvious Cue

Entering November of 2016 , the 2nd last 2 month of the year..

Something actually happened right after my previous post last month

I've found out that she have been deleting the photo albums
that we have shared on our Line chat.
She deleted those albums in batch ,
she deleted some of them first on end of Sep ,
then proceed to delete the rest 2 weeks after .

When I saw the notifications of her deleting those albums,
it felt like a after shock of an earthquake to me...
What I did next was that I actually confronted her
...not physically ,but via Facebook & Line chat,
after nearly 10 weeks of total silent among us.

I could've just stayed silent ,
but somewhere deep within me was screaming ,
telling me to say (write) something to her..
I knew very well that the  moment signifies her final resolve
in closing all ties between us ..
& I wanted to say something about it at that very moment.

I wasn't really sure what was my true intention
of trying to contact her...
perhaps it was partly about trying to reconnect ,
or partly about venting out my frustrations at her leaving me,
or even partly about putting on a proper closure..
for both of us...

I even went as far as asking her can we meet ,
but she replied me swiftly :

"We should not meet"

That was the last words she ever replied me.

Truth is...I'm not sure what good this whole thing really did ...

BTW last night I went back again , trying to feed the black cat..
but the cat wasn't there , just like it wasn't there last month I visited.

It's TWICE now...
perhaps it is an obvious cue that I was desperately waiting for..
that I should let all of these go..