Last moments

How ironic...
though I've created this post since 10th of May,
(according to the record that is,otherwise I wouldn't be able to recall when anyway)
But I didn't even write a single word on this post...
This post was supposed to be finished & posted up on the blog before I leave Penang...
thus the title "Last Moments"...
I intended to write down my feelings & memories during the last remaining times I was still in Penang before I move down to KL...
But I never finish it in time...
Here I am,inside KL TARc main campus' library,which is also a almost a week after I left Penang,
only I started to finish my 'unfinished post' over here....
Before I moved down here,all I could recall is that I was busying my library's matters...
Oh well,I shouldn't be using the word 'my library',
I'm no longer the president anymore,
the library wasn't mine from the 1st place anyway...
I felt that I was running away from my responsibilities...leaving a huge mess to the people the was always counting on me...(or were they?..)
A friend of mine told me otherwise...he told I shouldn't think like this...
shouldn't think so negatively towards everything that I've been through....
I will try my best not have such thinking anymore...
but I wonder how far will I be able to endure?
At the end of the day..it's all about how I'd really think about myself...
Now that I'm already at KL...
there's nothing more I could do about whatever I've left in Penang already...
including my very own past that happened there...
Redemption?Salvation?Forgiveness?
Are these what I'm always dying to seek for?
Can I really "Let Go"....?