Moments in 2011 - Part 1

IT IS now November 21st...less than 7 weeks before 2011 ends..

Can't believe it's been 5 years since I've started this blog..
My 1st post on this blog was written around this period of time
( To be exact , it was written on 9th of December ,2007 , but close enough=p)
Looking back to all the previous posts I've written over the years ,
I've realized that I have lesser and lesser blog entries ...
I guess I'm becoming more & more lazier to update my blog..(& doing other stuffs too)
There were times where I'd wanted to express my feelings and emotions onto this blog ...
but most of the time , I just couldn't find the right words to express them properly...
& so I simply let them fade away...

If I'm to summarize my life in 2011 up to this point ,
well , I actually don't know where to start or what to tell...
It seems like a lot was going on , but on 2nd thought ,
most of them were insignificant or not memorable nor interesting enough to mention ..
or maybe I'm simply ashamed & even afraid of recalling back those memories...

1st half of the year , I was being ignorant & stubborn as usual for the most part of it...
Though during that time , I did get to try out something different ...
something which I've enjoyed very much ...
I finally get the chance of actually directing & shooting a short video clip ,
though it was for my Moral subject's coursework ..but I get to express my creativity & thoughts through that video within the limited freedom & scope of the assignment given...

I was given a topic about war , so I had to make a short video clip about war & discuss the moral values that comes with that particular war scenario....
Of all the other topics , this is the one that captured my interest the most ,
because with this topic , I get to do what I've always love to do , action scene =p
It was quite a tedious work to be the director & the camera man at same time...
not to mention the amount of 'wonderful hours' I had to spend on editing the clips ..
my original plan was to play a role in the video , but I changed the plan due to time constraint as it's time consuming & difficult to explain the exact camera angle I desire in each shots for the various scenes should I let the others to be the camera man ...

To sum it all up ,the entire process was tedious & challenging ,
but the sense of achievement I get during the moment I presented it during class was simply..awesome
The tutor & my course mates were all reacted quite positively when the video was played...
I know I'm bragging about such a little achievement but that's the only productive thing I've done in the 1st half of 2011...

To be continued...

"Little achievement"

Today , lots of people were celebrating ....a celebration which I'm not eligible to attend...

3 years ago ,I had set myself a goal ,
a goal which I see as 'just a little achievement' ,
& I told myself I mustn't be satisfied with just that ,
I need to continue aim higher to keep pushing forward.

& yet , over the years ,
I'm unable to achieve even the so called "little achievement"...

Even right now , I'm doing little progression in reaching the goal which I've set back then ,
though I'm doing a slightly better job than previous attempt ,
but apparently it's not enough to guarantee my invitation to the next celebration ...

"How hard can it be?"

I told myself 3 years ago...
& still telling myself the exact same thing even now...

But the truth is ,
Confidence needs to be backed up with actions ,
otherwise it's just an empty talk
& so it remains an empty talk even as we speak right now...