Looking Back

I have a friend whose blog is called "Never Look Back"
Now when you look at my blog ,which is called "Flashback' ,
don't you think these two things are totally opposing each other?
What I am trying to say is , the idea of 'never look back' will never ever work on me,
because I always look back , from time to time , I simply just love to look back to the past events , that's why I named my blog 'flashback' & it's filled with many flashbacks of my own....

I have this habit of keeping track of all my past msn chatting records
& I do read through some of the conversations records I had with certain people every once in a while...
& every time I do,I will always be surprised by the responses or contents that certain individuals had written to me in the past ,because most of the time,I had forgotten most of the conversations that we had exchanged in the past...

In one of the Adam Sandler's films , "Click" ,there was a scene about he could replay back any of his past events using the magical universal controller ...
now I really wish I have that kind of magical device on my hands right now...
It's not that I wanna go back in time & change my past...
I just wish I could be there again & 'feel' those moments again...

I guess I really love "looking back"...
maybe that's because I was & still am afraid of "looking forward"..?