A Silent Night

On a silent & lonely night like tonight , it's very easy to have all sorts of emotions crawling out from the deepest depth of my heart .

The first week was filled with shock ,confusion ,unwillingness ,uneasy..
then followed by denial & distractions to get away from all those raw emotions that's running wild ..

When the second week came ,
the wild feelings deep within have calmed down quite a bit ,
less confusion ,rational thoughts have kicked in ,tried to accept the reality ,
convinced myself it's the best case scenario that happened...
tried to move on...

...more distractions followed..

Coming to the end of the second week ,
there are these intense ,continuous & raw feelings
that are boiling inside me...
kinda like a volcano preparing to erupt..

I knew it won't be so easy....