Too Little , Too Late

"I lived through 2016 doing the best I could , & I've no regrets "

If you ever find me telling you that , well, that'd be a lie

Though , from time to time I keep telling myself the same lie ,
& I even got myself convinced that this the truth at times .

I'd like to think I'm doing great   , that I'm progressing ,
that I'm growing to become a better man this year.

Keywords : "I would like to think "

But that doesn't make it the truth ,
it's just a lie used to sugarcoat my carefree attitude at making progressions.

The past few months , incidents after incidents made me realized that :
I'm doing too little at this point of my life ,
& whatever small progressions I take so much pride in making ,
they are too slow..too late to be relevance .

I thought I've let go of my past & moved on...
but the truth is I never did...
what I did was to deny & pretend my past mistakes didn't happen.
then simply hope time will wash away everything.

What a great way to end a year :
by realizing everything I've done till this point has been too little ,too late ;
& everything is going back to square one right now .