Birthday Wish

You know I never thought much about my birthday wish ,
not on any of my past birthdays , as far as I can remember them...

So my friends asked about my birthday wish for this year just hours ago ,
at the celebration they hooked me up (which I'm very glad about it )

....I said nothing...but deep inside my heart , I just wished one thing :

"I wished I could reconnect with her "

It's an impossible wish to ever become true , just like how a little kid wished for a unicorn for their birthday ..only less naive & more stupid...

She finally blocked me again , on my 2nd number ,&  made a firm point yet again that she really really wanted to cut all ties with me ...

Not that I'm totally surprised , but still it cause a emotional reaction (the negative kind) quite abit ...

So ya ,to wrap it all up ,I'm happy that my buddies were there for me , but the void deep within my heart is still not mended to this date...not that I have much expectations anyways...