A Detour?

I guess not everything ends the way we hoped for......
Since it's already happened,I've no choice but to take a detour,
though this new path that I've decided to walk isn't a easy path,
in fact,I think it's more difficult than the one I started,
oh well,here goes nothing,afterall,no pain,no gain;p

Why am I keep on doing this?
This meaningless , inmatured act,which will only lead to nothing at the end........
I don't know,I guess I'm just blindly follow my heart....again.....
Maybe as time passed by,when i read this very blog,
this very post I've written today in the future,
I might laugh at myself by then,but until then,I'll stick to the plan......for now....
It's sure a difficult path waiting for me up ahead,
& I do not know what's coming for me next,
but I think everything that has a begining,must have an ending....
I'm really is an idiot afterall....

Vacation:End of Journey

I thought I'd wana update my blog throughout the whole trip,by using my PSP there,
but I couldn't find a free Wi-Fi hotspot in Genting,every single hotspot available up there are either password-protected or required you to log in to use its service.....WTF;p

Anyway,here the brief summary of my whole trip:
we departed from Prangin mall to KL on Sunday night,at about 11pm,
& stayed there 1 night before headed to Genting.
We only manage to visit Time Square there,& I bought a few souvenirs for my friends here on Penang,after that,I actually went back to hotel room & slept,until 2am........
I know,I know,it's kinda a waste sleeping in your hotel room so evarly on a vacation....
So i woke up,& headed outside with one of my friend( he happened to be woke up as well),while the rest of my roomates were sleeping at about 2.30am...
KL didn't known as the 'City that Never Sleeps' for nothing....
the street outside were still pretty crowded,though not as crowded during day time,
but it's something that you won't be able to see on any streets in Penang;p
To be honest,this is the 1st time I walked the mid-night street of KL;p
& I've encountered something pretty funny....
aside from dozens of Taxi drivers waiting along the road trying to offer you a ride,
there's also a guy ,a middle aged guy to be exact,
he's not offering us a taxi ride,in fact,he's offering us a lady instead;p
Of course we rejected him at that time;p

Next stop,Genting highlands.
The next morning,after we checked out from the hotel,
we walked (from Bukit Bintang) to Pudu Raya to get our ride to Genting.
I was so excited,but upon reaching our destination up there,the weather doesn't look too good...
Well,heavy fog means we can't play most of the games in the outdoor theme park,
& that's ar....kinda dissapointing;p
We stayed at there for 2 nights,& left on thursday afternoon....
Nothing much I could say on what I've been doing up there,beside playing as much as possible;p
The City of entertainment is a place with lots of fun,ya,
but you really shouldn't be staying there any longer than 1 day,
unless you are going for the casino......
because the food up there is already a pain in the ass,i mean the price,
not the taste of the food itself,though it's not even as delicious as the food we got here on Penang.
I've spent nearly rm100 solely on the meals I've eaten up there....
Well,what else can I expect besides wasting lots of money when it comes to vacation...

Overall,the vacation was fun,cause at least I was there with a bunch of crazy friends;p
Though the money I've spent throughout the whole trip weren't quite worth the price....
that's just kinda ....dissapointing..again....
It's actually been 4 days since I've returned from my vacation,
I guess I was busy resting until now only I could spare some time to finish my post here;p
What a trip;p
Now i'm back to my normal life again......Something ought to be have a result i guess......

Vacation:Pre-Journey

I thought I'd never get out of this island before the year of pig ends;p
& here I'm,preparing for a trip to,well,a place where I've been to for quite a few times already since I was a kid,which is none other than the wonderful city of entertainment:genting highland;p
Just that this time,I'm going with my friends,not family.

There's still some time before I set off,maybe i shall hang out with my friends here for the time being later,or else we'll be missing each other for the next 4 days....;p

Hang out with friends before I go,huh?......
Am i making a wrong decision ?
For not spending the time with that person?
But then again,I'm afraid something bad might happend if I meet with that person.....
It's best for me to stay out of this for a while,& think nothing than the trip itself.....

Heart versus Mind

A battle between your own heart & your own mind,which one do you think will win at the end?

What an interesting question,ya?I've been wondering this for quite a long time already,
I guess the answer varies from person to person,& depends on the situation itself......

I lost my mind last time.....I hope i won't repeat the very same mistake again,
but then again,who knows what's next?

'On the battlefield,you'll never figured out what's next'.

This is a line i heard from a game I played ,quite meaningfully actually,
though we are not on the battlefield,but this principle applies on our daily lives as well.
But even so,we can still control & predicts most of our own lives,
But sometimes,many things are just unpredictable,i guess...
& most of all,we often facing lots of dilemma,struggle between decisions,
& the way how we choose our path,
life isn't easy to start with,& it becomes more & more difficult as we move on....

Why do we have all sort of difficulties in our lives?
Sometimes,it's not the problem itself that troubled us,
but it's our mind,our thinking,our mindset that do so......

Our heart,on the other hand,holds our emotions,our desires...
People said:'It's best to just follow our heart'
Well,it's true sometimes,but sometimes it'll just lead us to disaster.....

It's more like gambling actually,
choosing either sides will lead to the same victory,
or same disaster...
But still we can't just blindly follow either of them,
our heart & mind are actually meant to be co-exist,
we can't live without either of them.....

The key is to maintain the balance between them both,
if we could do that,then we could prevent or at least reducing our mistakes,
& of course,so we could live a better life at the end;p

Hmm,wonders,wonders.....
How long will my mind be able control my heart?
It's just a matter of time my heart might forcing me doing something that's too risky,
even though the reward is something that i'd dying for,
but I just couldn't afford to be hurted again if it ends the other way......

I just hope that my heart will forget about everything,
so that my mind won't be having such a hard time controlling it.....

I guess I'm just an idiot after all......

Flashback

Speaking of flashback,I 1st heard of this term when i was playing a game...
i forgot wat's the name of the game already,but it's a term often used in most of the games nowadays....
anyway,flashback is refer to the event that've occured in our past..
.....or something like that:p
& of course,when we are talking about flash back,
that particular flashback must be something that is meaningful enough for you to remember it,or share with other people....(bullshit;p)
There are too many flash back of my whole life that I can actually write down in here,espeacially those that happened too long ago one,I can hardly recall them anyway......
So I guess I can only write down those that have just happened recently one....

There weren't anything that's worth mentioning about the 1st half year of my life this year...
everything that've happened before Jun,didn't left much impact on my life......
or rather,I forgot most of the incidents that've happened that time anyway;p

Actually until September,my life still didn't changed any much,still very normal I'd say,
breath the same air everyday,doing the same thing over & over again.........
But my life has slightly changed after September.....

There was an incident,an incident that left more or less impact on my life & almost everything about myself...

On the very same month,I've participated in a basketball tournament organized by HYS that held in Chung Ling private.......This is where everything started....me & her......
A girl that I've never met before,let alone even know anything about her,
but that's not the problem,the problem is,the girl is way too young than me....
I suppose age isn't quite a factor when it comes to love...or in this case,a puppy love.....
I don't even dare to use the term love on her,cause i know very well that I ain't mature enough to understand what's love really meant......
"17 minus 4" ...this is what my friend & classmate said to made fun of me that time ....
But despite all of this,I still started a relationship with her at the end......
A relationship that only lasted 1 month.......
which i've expected this before I even started this whole thing....
it never meant to be long lasting,I knew it from the very begining ,yet I still do it.....
Ok,everything ought to be end sooner or later one,so I tell myself,
you should grab this opportunity & try to gain some experience....
afterall,it's not everyday that you'll find yourself get loved by a girl....
To be honest,the reason i started a relationship with her was because there is a higher chance that we might end up in a couple.......
all you need to do is to ask for it,& you'll get it....
& driving by my own desires to have a relationship,to do those things that only couples can do,

I allowed it to took over my mind,I gave up my rational,then just blindly follow my heart.......
I was tempted,though i did enjoyed every single moment I spent with her,
I had a wonderful 1st date,I received the very 1st gift,a pink shirt from her,
everything was like a dream come true......
until the moment I woke up & had to face the reality......
But this ain't like a dream ,nor it's like a game,cause in game,
you felt the excitement,but you'll never felt the pain.....
But it's only natural that we had to give out something then only we can get the reward...
there's no such thing as free lunch in this world...
everything that has a result,must have a reason......
That's the simple but ultimate law of the Universe...
I've expected the worst of it,i played it safe,yet when it really ends,
I can't help but allowed it to hurt my heart at the end.......
I guess I'm just an ordinary,weak minded & inmature idiot afterall.......
So it's true what they said;'no pain,no gain'......

After what have happened so suddenly & so unexpected,i mean the fact that I actually had a relationship with a girl that I never thought'd be my girlfriend,it's so funny.......
I guess what has happened is already a past of my older self,
despite the bitter memories from it,I learnt a lot from it......

It's been a month since that incident,I've finally get hold of myself by now already,I've even back to my old life since then....Life surely isn't as simple as a Sim,ya?;p

Prologue:Welcome to my life

From now onwards,I'm gonna invite your all to enter my life....
ya,that's right,folks,welcome to my life;p
This is my 1st time get into the cyber-world of blogging,
since all people around me have their own blog,
i guess it's just a matter of time that I'll follow the trend.....
& here i'm,writing my 1st ever post in my blog that just created a moment ago...
There too many things that I'd really wanted to share with all my friends....
My feelings,my experiences,my thoughts....
I guess i'll just have to start posting them one by one here...start by today;p
......
though i don't know if I could update my blog as often as i hope.....
but anyway,be prepared ,as more of my post will be coming soon;p