Flashback

Speaking of flashback,I 1st heard of this term when i was playing a game...
i forgot wat's the name of the game already,but it's a term often used in most of the games nowadays....
anyway,flashback is refer to the event that've occured in our past..
.....or something like that:p
& of course,when we are talking about flash back,
that particular flashback must be something that is meaningful enough for you to remember it,or share with other people....(bullshit;p)
There are too many flash back of my whole life that I can actually write down in here,espeacially those that happened too long ago one,I can hardly recall them anyway......
So I guess I can only write down those that have just happened recently one....

There weren't anything that's worth mentioning about the 1st half year of my life this year...
everything that've happened before Jun,didn't left much impact on my life......
or rather,I forgot most of the incidents that've happened that time anyway;p

Actually until September,my life still didn't changed any much,still very normal I'd say,
breath the same air everyday,doing the same thing over & over again.........
But my life has slightly changed after September.....

There was an incident,an incident that left more or less impact on my life & almost everything about myself...

On the very same month,I've participated in a basketball tournament organized by HYS that held in Chung Ling private.......This is where everything started....me & her......
A girl that I've never met before,let alone even know anything about her,
but that's not the problem,the problem is,the girl is way too young than me....
I suppose age isn't quite a factor when it comes to love...or in this case,a puppy love.....
I don't even dare to use the term love on her,cause i know very well that I ain't mature enough to understand what's love really meant......
"17 minus 4" ...this is what my friend & classmate said to made fun of me that time ....
But despite all of this,I still started a relationship with her at the end......
A relationship that only lasted 1 month.......
which i've expected this before I even started this whole thing....
it never meant to be long lasting,I knew it from the very begining ,yet I still do it.....
Ok,everything ought to be end sooner or later one,so I tell myself,
you should grab this opportunity & try to gain some experience....
afterall,it's not everyday that you'll find yourself get loved by a girl....
To be honest,the reason i started a relationship with her was because there is a higher chance that we might end up in a couple.......
all you need to do is to ask for it,& you'll get it....
& driving by my own desires to have a relationship,to do those things that only couples can do,

I allowed it to took over my mind,I gave up my rational,then just blindly follow my heart.......
I was tempted,though i did enjoyed every single moment I spent with her,
I had a wonderful 1st date,I received the very 1st gift,a pink shirt from her,
everything was like a dream come true......
until the moment I woke up & had to face the reality......
But this ain't like a dream ,nor it's like a game,cause in game,
you felt the excitement,but you'll never felt the pain.....
But it's only natural that we had to give out something then only we can get the reward...
there's no such thing as free lunch in this world...
everything that has a result,must have a reason......
That's the simple but ultimate law of the Universe...
I've expected the worst of it,i played it safe,yet when it really ends,
I can't help but allowed it to hurt my heart at the end.......
I guess I'm just an ordinary,weak minded & inmature idiot afterall.......
So it's true what they said;'no pain,no gain'......

After what have happened so suddenly & so unexpected,i mean the fact that I actually had a relationship with a girl that I never thought'd be my girlfriend,it's so funny.......
I guess what has happened is already a past of my older self,
despite the bitter memories from it,I learnt a lot from it......

It's been a month since that incident,I've finally get hold of myself by now already,I've even back to my old life since then....Life surely isn't as simple as a Sim,ya?;p